I wish this were true . Ugh I hate how things can turn out . Since idk when things have not been good good. Actually since forever . And I somehow make things worst for myself . Once I feel like things are getting there again it’s like I get this mean old slap in the face that I need to face my reality and it sucks cause I am where I am because of me . My actions . I just want things to be somewhat good again —- none of the bad stuff. Well a little cause I mean I am human and I can’t experience good without bad but I want the normal bad of I broke a nail or something along those lines why can’t I have that? Is there something I have to experience that I already haven’t in order to feel good ? This sucks I wish I could just end it all):